Coby

Coby calls Ti the next day, when he gets home from surfing, before Hayley comes around looking for him. "Are you doing anything on Mother's Day?" he asks her. She laughs kind of nervously & asks him what's up. "I need to go somewhere, Ti, and I was hoping you'd come with me. I'd owe you big time if you came with me, Heather usually does it, but now that she's married..." Ti laughs again, and he wonders if the French guy is around, "What, to some brunch with your mother? You still owe me big time for going with you to Heather's wedding," she says, and Coby can see her smiling as she talks, like she enjoys reminding him. Sometimes he doesn't know if he loves her or hates her. "No, Ti, not brunch, to Forest Lawn," he explains. She's not from L.A., but everyone who has been here long enough knows Forest Lawn, the cemetery with all the billboards everywhere. Her tone changes immediately, getting serious & concerned, "Oh, I'm sorry, Coby," she says, "Of course I'll go with you."

"After my Dad left, my Mom kind of lost it. She got hooked on pills, I have no idea what, I was a kid, but she overdosed. They still don't know if it was an accident, or intentional," Coby explains, as he lays flowers on his mother's grave.

She says she's sorry, and she hugs him. That's why he doesn't tell this to people: they never know what to say. Heather was always pretty good at helping him through this. She doesn't even have a place where she can visit her father annually, she only knows he 'disappeared'. Heather is married now & moving on, Coby is left behind again.

Ti isn't Heather, and she doesn't have any magic words to make it all better, but she holds him real tight and he always feels good with his face pressed against her hair.

Coby's mother is not the only site they have to visit: Coby's Mother's Day pilgrimage to Forest Lawn includes another stop. Krista. It's the kind of name Ti would laugh at, if they weren't in a graveyard. And Krista, like Hayley, was the kind of girl Ti would have laughed at, too. Though she didn't live very long, so he can't say for sure what Krista might have been or done, if it weren't for him.

It's a harder story to tell Ti, and it's one he never tells anyone. Only Heather knows. "We were fifteen," he says, "We were just kids. But she got pregnant, and she tried to, you know, give herself an abortion. With a coat hanger," as he speaks, he starts to cry. He hasn't cried in a very very long time, but if he's going to do it, who better to do it with than Ti? She loves crying, in fact, she joins him now, tears streaming down her cheeks as she listens to his sad story. "She didn't even tell me, Ti, that she was pregnant. I found out when they told me she was...dead," he says, choking at the end at the end. For a moment he thinks he done, but there's more: "I can't remember what she looked like, Ti. I hardly knew her...she died for me & I can't remember what she looked like. I try to remember & all I see are all the girls I've slept with over the years, she could be any one of them. I feel like, it should have been me that died, Ti."

Coby has stopped crying now as Ti takes over for him, sobbing in his arms. He brought her here to comfort him: in a way it works, it is a comfort to hold her while she cries. "I miss you so much, Coby," she sobs into his chest. "I'm right here, Ti," he answers.

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